One of my favourite researchers, Linda Silverman, has made a list of what gifted women appear like.
Russel Barkley impresses me by his meticulously researched presentations. There are no wild claims, just real knowledge.
Very interesting talk about what ADHD really is
After almost two years in treatment for what my GP initially suspected was a Personality Disorder but was interpreted as Overeating Disorder by my psychologist(s), I have now been transferred via a psychiatrist who suspected Bipolar Disease to a psychiatric nurse who specializes in schema treatment (Young) and seems very reluctant to my ideas that all that’s “wrong” with me can be quite neatly summed up by giftedness and overexcitabilities (all 5 of them), with the possible admission of ADHD and/or PTSD.
When she sums up the theories of the shrinks about the PD/BP/overeating that still have not vanished and the sleeping problems that so far have been ignored, she wants to start from scratch and “remove the symptom illnesses first”, i.e. cure the overeating and sleeping issues completely. I can practically see her brain ticking off little boxes, trying to fit me neatly into her pathology categories. Of course, she struggles already…
I scored highly on the initial assessment for ADHD, but some points stand out like sore thumbs. No, I did not fail in school just because my attention was scattered. I have a brain that has compensated wonderfully as far as possible. I did not need to pay attention in class: spending the first couple of weeks each semester scanning through the books, and then participating in any discussion saw me through 13 years of school without putting in any more work than the obligatory assignments. And I always did quite well on exams: for once, there were no distractions, no punishment for knowing the correct answers, no waiting around for everyone else to catch the drift, just blissful solitude and an opportunity to let it all pour out. Underachiever? In school, hardly. But throughout the rest of my life: most definitely!
Then, there’s the opposite problem: No, I do not pass Mensa’s home test. After 30 or so tasks that look so darned similar, I am unable to keep my attention on task, so I end up with a score that is significantly lower than I know ought to be achievable. But to someone outside of my experiences, it seems incomprehensible that I should object to a score of 121. That’s a GOOD score, right? But I easily grasp complex notions, learn very quickly, and have an excellent memory, so it comes naturally to solve “Einsteins riddle”, sudokus, sets of equations etc. And I have lived through far too many situations where I knew the answers before the rest even realized there would be a problem to be convinced that the difference between a good score and an accurate score matters.
So here I am, having spent months researching giftedness, overexcitabilities and high sensitivity, and a little bit about ADHD as well. So many books, articles and websites describing me to a T, despite me never having met any of the authors. I started to feel I knew a bit about who I was, and why I was the way I was. What I wanted was a sparring partner to help figure out how best to deal with all this. Instead, I get to fill out beginner’s questionnaires while wondering if there could be any possible benefits to just letting them label me whatever suits them, even if it is Bipolar with a Personality Disorder?
One of many interesting posts from a blog that I must find a way to follow
A wonderful source of information and solace!
If only I could get some of the people in my life to read and understand this…
All my life, I have felt different, weird, not like other people. I knew I was smart, I wore my heart on my sleeve, I handled criticism very badly, and I thought about more things, more deeply than most people around me. But, I didn’t know why. And then, a year or two ago, I found a label that fits. And I still can’t believe it.
It turns out that I am highly gifted with underachievement issues stemming from Overexcitabilities, Perfectionism, multipotentiality, lazy work habits due to being under-challenged as a child, and Imposter Syndrome.
I first suspected after reading the following in “The 10 most commonly asked questions about highly gifted children” by Kathi Kearney:
- Many gifted adults today have long had a nagging sense that they were “different” or didn’t fit in a school, but did not know the reason why.
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The shoe market was big. Really big, really. Enormous, perhaps? There were so many shoemakers making so many shoes made over so many lasts to so many distributors who delivered the shoes to so many sellers that one could easily mistake the system for chaos. Still, most shoes ended up neatly paired and sold to happy new owners by the end of a day. Most of them.
One day, a shoe was placed on a counter next to other shoes that looked quite similar. They clearly were parts of the same series, covered with the same leather on the outside, died to the same colors, and the patterns and markings made it clear they were a family. On the inside, however, some of the shoes stood out. Continue reading
Below is a compilation of some information on giftedness and brain function that hold special appeal to me personally. My doctors have, so far, diagnosed asthma, allergies, Raynaud’s Phenomenon, overeating disorder, depressive states, and are currently leaning towards Psoriasis Arthritis as an explanation for the extensive muscle and joint pain, fatigue and skin problems. In July 2013, after thorough screening and testing, it was confirmed that I have ADHD and am gifted.
As I’ve gone through almost 10 years of progressive health failure, it has struck me as more and more obvious that those issues are likely to be related. I still have a lot of processing to do before I can write coherently about all this, so for now I’ll just share the information and my suspicion that there IS a connection somewhere that links all this, and that it has to do with the level of brain activity and the way signals are propagated. Could the link have something to do with myelin and overconnectivity in the brain that is misinterpreted in the Vagus nerve(s)?
Dabrowski: Theory of Positive Disintegration
Psychomotor Heightened excitability of the neuromuscular system. Capacity for being active and Continue reading
This excellent hypothesis is the closest I have come so far to reading a plausible explanation for what is going on inside the heads of the gifted.